Alessandra Sampaio fell to her knees and wept as she clambered on to the boatâs deck and came face to face with the remote riverside clearing where her husbandâs life was extinguished and hers turned upside down.
The sound of Sampaioâs lament mixed with birdsong and the voice of an Indigenous shaman echoed through the jungle where the British journalist, Dom Phillips, and his Brazilian comrade Bruno Pereira were shot dead in June 2022.
âDom and Bruno are here! Save them! Their spirits are lost here! We canât see them but they are here!â the 85-year-old medicine man, César Marubo, cried out, imploring his peopleâs God and creator, Kana Voã, to guide their souls towards paradise.
âTake them by the hand and lift them up into heaven!â Marubo pleaded, his eyes also filling with tears.
On the riverbank before them, framed by Amazonian money trees laden with bright red fruit, two wooden crosses marked the spot where Phillips and Pereira were ambushed and murdered, allegedly by a trio of illegal fishers who are in prison awaiting trial.
âWhat I most want is to leave this pain behind,â Sampaio had said the previous evening, as she prepared to make her first journey to the place where Phillipsâs final reporting mission came to a sudden end.
Sampaioâs visit, marking the two-year anniversary of a crime that shocked the world, was part of a deeply personal quest to come to terms with the loss of her husband, a longtime Guardian reporter who was writing a book about the Amazon when he was killed.
âIâm not angry. Iâve never felt anger, I just miss him so much,â said Sampaio, who wears the wedding ring recovered from her husbandâs body around her neck.
But the pilgrimage was also designed to announce the creation of the Dom Phillips Institute, which will honour the journalistâs legacy through educational initiatives raising awareness of the complexities and magnificence of the Amazon and its original inhabitants.
âWe donât want to be frozen in pain and frustration. We want to forge ahead,â Sampaio said as she journeyed by boat along the Itaquaà river towards the shrine activists have built at the scene of the crime. âWe must transform this pain into a positive movement â and give new meaning to everything that happened.â
Sampaio said the institute would be guided by the qualities for which her husband was known: tenderness, a burning desire to listen, and respect for diversity and life.
âI think that if Dom was here talking to me now heâd say: âGo Alê: move forwards, learn more, make contacts, help to echo this message about this incredible thing that is the Amazon and all of its beauties,ââ Sampaio said before travelling to the memorial on the same vessel Indigenous searchers used in their dogged 10-day battle to find Phillips and Pereira after they disappeared while heading to the rivertown of Atalaia do Norte.
Members of those search teams accompanied Sampaio during last weekâs visit to pay tributes of their own.
âIt was such a tragedy and we are here to celebrate them,â said Binin Carlos Matis, an Indigenous activist who worked with Pereira trying to defend his ancestral home in the Javari valley Indigenous territory, a Portugal-sized sprawl of jungle that is home to the worldâs largest concentration of isolated peoples.
Orlando Possuelo, an Indigenous expert who helped coordinate the search operation and continues to work in the region, hoped the memorial would also remind frontline activists of the dangers that their struggle to preserve the Amazon involved. âWe donât want the Javari valley to be filled with crosses,â he said.
The headquarters of Possueloâs Indigenous monitoring group, Evu, in Atalaia do Norte was the first stop on Sampaioâs two-day tour of the isolated rainforest region near Brazilâs tri-border with Colombia and Peru.
There, she heard distressing reports about the ongoing assault on the Javari valley territory where illegal fishers, poachers, miners and drug traffickers continue to operate despite government pledges to crack down. âThere are 300 points of invasion,â Possuelo told Sampaio, pointing to a map peppered with coloured dots denoting the different threats.
Days earlier Evu activists had chased off a gang of five poachers who had invaded the protected Indigenous territory, confiscating tapir and peccary meat and hundreds of tracajá river turtles they were trying to smuggle out and sell. On the eve of Sampaioâs arrival, an Evu member was assaulted at a local bar â an attack members suspect was motivated by their work.
But Sampaio also heard heartening accounts of how Evu had ramped up its activities in the two years since her husband was killed while reporting on the groupâs fight to protect Indigenous lives. Evuâs membership has doubled to about 40 since Phillips and Pereira were murdered, with plans for a 116-strong force in the coming years patrolling each of the Javari valleyâs six main waterways.
The next day Sampaio visited the base of the Indigenous association Univaja, which served as the nerve centre of the 2022 search effort, to discuss her plans for the institute and ask local leaders how it could help their cause. âThey will not silence Domâs voice,â she told them.
Representatives of the Matis, Marubo and Mayoruna peoples took turns to voice their hopes and fears over the regionâs future.
Teacher Nilo Marubo spoke gloomily about how a lack of education and opportunities was driving an exodus of young people from Indigenous villages. âWhen they arrive in the cities they end up getting mixed up in alcoholism, drugs and even [criminal] factions,â he said.
Marina Mayuruna, a 27-year-old activist, denounced the violence affecting Indigenous women and girls. âSome men will tell you this doesnât happen. But it does â and itâs the women who suffer,â she told Sampaio.
Clóvis Marubo, a 58-year-old leader, feared younger generations were becoming disconnected from traditional ways of life as western culture marched deeper into the region.
âThereâs been such a big change in the past 40 years. We are losing our culture. Our culture is becoming folklore,â he said, ruing how many youngsters no longer knew how to hunt monkeys or peccary, use bows and arrows, or speak their native tongues.
Silvana Marubo lamented the unabating threats to Indigenous activists and their non-Indigenous allies. âI worry who the next Doms and Brunos will be,â she said, telling Sampaio: âYour pain is our pain ⦠your tears are our tears. Your struggle is our struggle.â
Sampaio listened intently as her Indigenous hosts spoke, engrossed by their oration just as her journalist husband had been. At times tears rolled down her cheeks. At others she smiled and laughed, radiating hope and admiration as she heard their petitions.
Outside, Phillipsâs 53-year-old widow caught constant glimpses of the Amazonian treasures and peculiarities that had so captivated her partner. The boisterous yellow-rumped cacique birds feasting on mangoes in trees lining the rivertownâs streets. Dolphins cavorting in the waters below. The phantasmagoric statues of snakes, jaguars and saints adorning Atalaia do Norteâs squares.
One afternoon Sampaio took part in a Matis whipping ritual called mariwin, where men wearing ceramic masks and covered in fern leaves thrash participants with palm stalks to frighten off evil spirits. Sampaio winced as the lash struck her back but vowed to return to the Javari valley to ensure the Dom Phillips instituteâs first project benefited a place he had loved and where he was lost.
âI donât want to be stuck with this [negative] image of the Javari. For me the Javari is a world waiting to be discovered,â she said, staring out across the bronze-coloured waters where her spouse once roved. âThis is a special place for me.â